I had an epiphany just now.

I know why I've been feeling so lost and strange.

It's because the one person who understood me best, who I could be completely myself with, who knew how to put up with my mood swings and who could relate to me on a level that was exactly what I needed...that person is gone. There isn't anyone left who understands me completely and innately.

So I can't really talk to anyone about my feelings, because I don't feel that anyone will understand.

And as a result, I am unsettled.