It's midnight, and I can't sleep.

Probably because I had coffee, but also because the moment I stop distracting myself, my heart aches and I want my mommy so badly.

Looks like it's going to be a long night. I should probably do some prep for tutoring tomorrow, but...for right now I'm listening to Pandora and drawing. I also got a tattoo on Saturday, one of my own designs, and it's on my shoulder.

Funny how I never, ever get the tattoos that I plan. But I basically have the start of a sleeve now, since it's a gorgeous lotus flower but it looks kind of lonely sitting there by itself. I also think that when a woman has only one tattoo on her upper arm, it looks sort of tramp-ish. So I don't want to leave it that way for long.

Anyway, I spent the night working on another flower to add to it.

What is it about people and animals and basically anything alive that we all just want to be loved?

Like Topaze, for instance. All he wants to do is be close to me. He's sleeping on my bed right now; a ball of orange fur and white whiskers. He's never happier than when he can be around me.

I should also be making that craigslist ad for the kittens.

And renewing my student loan repayment plan. And my health insurance plan. And finishing the online mandated reporter course.

I want my mom.