Zodiac stuff

This is basically the outline for my next video.

So I've been reading up on a whole bunch of zodiac stuff lately...for...reasons.

And I've realized that a whole lot of the things that they say about my sign - Aquarius - is actually pretty darn accurate.

Things that are oh so true:

1. detached. Yup. Even when I feel emotionally invested in something, I still back away and look at it logically, from every possible angle, and then make my decision based on what's logically best. Most of the time. Sometimes, lately, I've tried to let go and let my heart do the talking, but I always fall back onto logic. Also, it's easier to get through life if you're detached from difficult situations and stuff like that.

2. Emotionally cold. Well....not really, but more of that I don't show my feelings or emotions. I can write about them, but you won't hear me talking aloud about I feel this way or that. If you ask me to express myself to you about anything emotionally charged...I go into what my mother used to call "shut down mode."

3. Speaking of shut down mode: The silent treatment. Yes, if I'm upset, I will be silent. I might rant and rave a little bit, sort of complain, if something is just a minor annoyance. Like a printer that doesn't work at my job, or a late train. But if I'm truly upset or angry: SILENCE. And don't ask me what I'm thinking, either. Because if I'm upset at you, I'll be saying all sorts of cruel things in my head that are MUCH better left unsaid. And if I'm upset at a situation, my mind is reeling so fast that my mouth can't keep up with any of my thoughts. So....silence.

4. eccentricities. To be honest, I'm not sure what mine are, but more than one person has on more than one occasion told me that I'm eccentric. Weird. A little hard to pin down and unpredictable. Meh. If you say so.

5. love for knowledge. I love reading about science and outer space and really just about anything that's newfangled and technological or sciencey. I don't like having to apply this knowledge to anything (which is why I decided not to be a doctor), but I do love learning about it. I also want to know "why" for everything. How things work, why they have to be a certain way...just for the sake of knowing it.

6. Unpredictable. I guess I'm spontaneous. I've been known to be out exploring the city on my own and randomly decide to get a tattoo or a piercing...or just up and go on a day trip without any previous planning. Actually, that's the best way to get me to do something. If you give me too much time to think about it, I'll logic it out and decide that maybe I shouldn't do it. I'm also constantly reinventing myself and my style. In that way, I go through phases. Eh. Life is such for me.


7. needing space. OH MY GOSH YES. I need to be alone. Like, all the time. Okay, not all the time, but there will be times, and frequently, that I just pull away from everyone in my life and go into a shell to recharge. If I'm over stressed at work, I will stay away from my family, stop answering texts and phone calls, and just be on my own for an indeterminate amount of time. If I don't get this, I become snappy and irritable, and generally just a miserable person to be around. But then again, I MAKE the time to be alone, because otherwise I can't deal. My true friends know that I tend to disappear for anywhere from days to months and years at a time and then come back.  They get me. That's why they're my friends.

8. closed off. I can consider you my acquaintance...I have probably dozens of those. But it's going to take FOREVER for me to call you my friend out loud, and it's also going to take longer than that for me to call you that in my head. I have five people who call me their best friend, and only two who I say that about in return. They know who they are. Also, the more you dig for information from me, the more you want me to open up to you, the farther you're pushing me away. Just be yourself and don't be needy or clingy or assume that I'm your friend, and you're on the right path. But besides that...it's way too much work to get new friends. Wayyyy too much work. I like the ones I have now just fine.

9. Honesty and fairness. When I was younger, I used to lie to get out of trouble. Now, I don't see the point in it. Like, why? If you lie, you have to remember what you said, and it will eventually come back to bite you. Why cheat? Why lie? It's not worth it. Also, regarding fairness, everyone has a right to their opinion and belief. Just don't go killing people to make them conform to yours. And don't infringe on other people's rights in order to support your own belief. Be fair for everyone. Like, don't get rid of male and female bathrooms in favor of unisex bathrooms! Just add a unisex bathroom so that everyone can have their choice and option to use what they're comfortable with! Yeesh. Is that so difficult? Seriously.

Yup. So that's me in a nutshell, I guess. Aquarian to the bone. And back.