Funny how I overthink too much. Well, not funny.

Especially around my period. Wish I could shut my brain off or put my emotions on hold.

I’m getting better at recognizing when I’m overreacting to something - thanks Jayleen. She was my first therapist, and an awesome one. I’ve toyed with the idea of looking her up on facebook just to say thank you. I worry that it would be unprofessional or inappropriate, though.

Knowing her, however, I doubt she’d mind. She’d probably just be really happy to hear how much she helped me.

Know what? I think I’ll do it.

I’ve spent two nights in a row by Cal, and it’s about to be a third one. I went with him to work today, too. When I write it, it sounds unhealthy, but it’s a nice change from only seeing him one day a week and only for a few hours before we both fall asleep. It’s not like I make a habit of it.

Seriously, though. Things have gotten so much better since the “I love you” admission. Not that they were bad before - everything with this relationship has been on an upward trajectory since October of last year, and especially since late December, when we stayed up all night talking about us and admitting how we really feel about each other.

Physical affection is pretty high on my list of love languages, and that’s also one of the ways I’ve measured our relationship’s progress. He’s gotten literally a hundred times more affectionate in the past eight months, and we have gotten so much more comfortable with and around each other.

Like today, when we got back from work, he had to use the bathroom so he was downstairs for a little while. I came up to his room first and laid on the loft bed he’s built (from scratch, after being inspired by my loft bed, lol) and started playing ESO. He came in and walked over to the window, then turned around and on his way back stretched up and gave me a kiss on my forehead as he went by.

A year ago, that would NOT have happened.

And there’s so much of that now. We fall asleep holding hands. I get good morning and goodnight kisses on the cheek to wake me or before we fall asleep.

I’m loving it, lol.

Oh yeah! So, the other night before we went to sleep, I gave him a kiss and said “I love you,” and he went “I love you too.”

EEEEEKKKK.

Yeah. I’m such a dork.

To make it worse, my heart started pounding and he could feel it, and he started teasing me about it *facepalm of embarrassment* UGH. Why so cute and embarrassing at the same time?

Anyway. I feel really lucky lately.

I keep thinking of the first day I met him in person, when he came to visit my church and met my parents. When I got home that evening, I asked my dad what he thought of him, and my dad went “What? You want to know if you can fall in love and get married?”

Of course that was NOT where I had been going with my question...but isn’t it funny how far we’ve come?

My iPad battery is at 9% now, so I think I’ll publish this before I run out of power and it gets lost in my drafts.

See ya!