this is so frustrating

You know what's funny? I'm so frustrated that I'm not even frustrated anymore. It's just like, okay.

Fine. Be that way.

Stupid life.

I bought a new phone. On credit. And everything was okay, because I bleeding had enough money to cover nearly the entire cost of the phone in my bank account. I was only going to have to make one more payment of about $80 and it would be paid off, and my credit score would go up, and there would be rainbows and unicorns and sh*t.

Looks like there's just sh*t.

My cat had to go and get sick, and these bloody veterinary bills are f*cking insane. So now he's at the vet and the estimate they gave me was $346. I had to leave a down payment of $150...plus I had to buy a $70 carrier on the way there because the kittens that were born yesterday are in the other one out back. I can't move them. At least this one is better because it opens from the top and is shaped like a duffel bag.

And every person that comes through this stinking door at work asks how I'm doing and I smile and say "fine," or "good," when really I just want to stare at them like a deranged zombie and gnash my teeth. How's that for imagery? That's how I feel.

Anyway, my car insurance is due, and when I've paid that, I'll only have $86 dollars left to put towards the phone.

MY LIFE.

What has it become? Why couldn't it just work out? I had it all planned out......


Good news is, at least mom's been approved for 8 hours of care, 7 days a week. And the insurance is going to allow her to keep the hospice care as well, so that'll be 12 hours of care total, except for the weekends. But that's fine.

Anyway. My boss is about to lose her head.

Later.