I hate that all of my posts are so negative lately. I just want it to be peaches and candy and sunshine, Care Bears and blueberries and pineapples and smiles and I want to keep the two kittens that we feed and I want to not have my life turned upside down and topsy turvy and be overworked and unhappy. I want to go back to school. I want a different job. As a matter of fact, I don't even want a different job, I want my career to start.
I have to fight for every moment of spare time I can get to get some writing done or anything creative. It's so crazy. But I refuse to give up. If I did, I'd go mad.
I was so sick that I had to be out of work Monday and Tuesday; today was my first day back. And I worked eleven hours today. I literally didn't punch out until 9:00pm.
It's funny, when I envision my future it's always filled with good things. But when I live it, it's so difficult. I'm not going to bother to complain about my mom because you already know the deal. But we're being forced out of this home so fast, and relationships are deteriorating and tension is rising and we're all exhausted and pushed beyond our limits.
It's so hard. It's just. So. Hard.
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