A scent, a whisper
a long-forgotten moment
washed up on the shores of memory
and psyche...torturous
and calling.
Do I answer?

Baby It's Cold Outside!

Hi there!

It's December now. Christmas is well on it's way, and the freezing weather hasn't been lagging too far behind - we're going down to 29 degrees Farenheit tonight.

That's really cold. I'm really cold.

Anyway, this semester has gone by so quickly; already there's only one week left of classes and then its finals week and then we're done!

Technically, I should only have one more semester left in school, but eh, things often don't go according to schedule, and my life (as I'm sure you've noticed by now) is no exception. I'm not the only one spending a few extra semesters in college...a few of my friends are too, and I've been told that it's quite common, so I don't feel so bad. The worst part, really, is just that my dad will be having to pay ten thousand dollars extra, because of that. Actually, more, because that's only for tuition, not counting books or transportation. So...we can tack on another $2000 for that, probably.

Not cool, but, I've gotta make the best of it. He's not sending me to school to come out sub-par...I'm going there to learn everything they teach me and to master it. If I can stop procrastinating and just generally wasting time, then perhaps I'd find room for all these extra-curricular activities that I'd like to do.

VIP things I need to do over winter break:

1. Shadow a P.A. Then maybe I can ask them how and where they acquired their hours of direct patient care experience.

2. Clean my room THOROUGHLY. No exceptions, no excuses, my room is going to be one hundred percent spic and span. Not an ounce of anything I don't need.

3. Fill out FAFSA. This is very, very important, and perhaps I can get daddy to file taxes early so that I can get it done as early as possible.

4. Apply for Scholarships. This needs to be done before December is even out, because there are a few with deadlines of Dec. 31st. Essay ones. Those are the best.

5. Work on my stories. Aurora Bourealis has got to be at the top of my list. Besides that, I've got to add at least one more chapter to The Mystical, and I'm hoping to get the word count of my new story (still untitled) up to 10,000 so that I can post it on inkpop. =)

6. CATCH UP ON SLEEP!! This is vital. It is vital to my health, my wellbeing, my physical and mental states of wellness....I'll go to bed no later than eleven. Seriously. No late night movie watching. If I want to watch a movie, it's got to go on by 9pm the latest.

7. Practice my instruments. Goals. I need goals for this one. My goal is: On the piano, I want to be able to play (flawlessly...or...almost) What I've Done by Linkin Park, and Fur Elise (at least the first movement). I also must practice my own songs. On the guitar, my goal is to learn to play Brighter Days by Leeland, and I must practice my own songs as well. However, on the guitar, first I must learn the scales and the notes.

I also must learn at least seven new chords. (On the guitar and piano, each).

8. Finish reading the New Testament before New Years. This is VIP. Very. VERY VERY VIP.

Alright. I've got my bio lab practical on Monday afternoon, and well, lots of studying to do. I'll chat with you more later.

P.S. There's a lovely new show (okay, it's not new, it's older than I am) that I've fallen for called Doctor Who. It's a British Sci-fi comedy/thriller that's just scintillating! =)

Your scintillating bio student,

~Cahryn K.

Day Thirty-Nine: Almost There!!

Hi there! Today's day thirty nine!

And I'm very, very proud to say, I haven't had any more slipups!!! =D
YAY!!!

Tomorrow is the last day of my forty-day fast, and I feel accomplished. I'm not there yet, but I'm so happy to know that it can be done, and by me!

It's also going to be nice to be able to eat during the daytime, lol.

But I can see how I've grown. It used to bother me to have food nearby when I was fasting, but now, I can have food, open, right under my nose, and be surrounded by people eating and it doesn't even faze me.

Proof: It was the second to last week of the Love Feast at church, where a family cooks each week for seven weeks for the entire church, and I finally stayed for it, because I wanted to get to spend some time with Christina, and so I sat at the table with everyone around me eating, but all I was doing was talking. Then Lisa noticed that I wasn't eating, nor did I have a fork. So she offered me one, and said "Ohmigosh, I'm sorry, you don't have a fork, so you can't eat!"

Lol.

So I declined politely and said that I was saving the food for later, and of course everyone wanted to know why, so I said because I'm fasting, and Raequette looked SO surprised; she asked "But how can you just sit there with the food in front of you, and you're just staring at it! Aren't you tempted?"
So I thought about it (for the first time, actually) and realized, no, it didn't tempt me. I'd gotten used to it.

I know I'm fasting, I know I can't eat, and so, no biggie. But I'm very glad that God has helped me to get through this thus far.

In other news, I'm about to declare an English minor!!!! WHOOOOOOPEEEEEE!
I'm so excited about that. I realized that I have enough English classes (and I'm taking two more as DECs next semester) that I'll only need two more and then I'll have completed all the requirements for an English minor. And then, I just get my GPA up a little bit higher (which the English classes will help me to do) and I know my English GPA is great, and I'LL BE ABLE TO GET INTO THE ENGLISH HONOR SOCIETY!!!!
How uh-may-zing is THAT?

I love God.

He rocks.

I also really like Stellar Kart. Lol. Random, I know, but not so much, really. I happen to be listening to them right now on my iPod. *bops head*

I also really like Doctor Who. It's a British sci-fi mystery series with an alien Time Lord known only as The Doctor....he time travels and solves all sorts of crazy alien mysteries. I loves it!!

Okay, time for me to go now...must get some sleep!!

See you later!!
Your stellar time traveler,
~Cahryn K.

Day Thirty: It's been a while

I know, wow, I'm back.

You probably thought I fell off the face of the earth.

Well I've got news for you: the earth doesn't have a face. So how would I fall off it? =P

I'm still tired. Even more so...I also have my 12-time-a-year-visitor and I'm just a little bit irritable.

Just a bit. (Read: a whole frigging lot).

Lots of things haven't been working out for me, namely: technology, study time, physics, nor anything worthwhile in general.

Here's an example: I had a Cell Signaling midterm today. On saturday I went to the mall to buy a pillow, because they had a sale (which I missed, so I had to pay full price($12) for one and get the other for $1 instead of each for $3.99), and I took all my cell signaling lecture notes and put them in the bag I was bringing so I could study while I was traveling. Well, the bus was full on the way there, so I had to stand squished and didn't get to study, and my hands were full on the way back, so I didn't get to study, and then today came, and I grabbed my folder containing the notes and shoved it in my bookbag haphazardly as I dashed madly out of the house to catch the bus.

One little problem.

The notes were not in that folder. They were in my other bag, nestled snugly in a corner on my bedroom floor.

I discovered this while I was sitting in the Traditions Lounge at my school, wracking my brain for a reason as to why there were only BIO 201 notes in my folder.

Yeah. Such has been my life as of late.

My fast is going splendidly, and by splendidly I mean I've only got ten more days to go and hallelujah. Forty days is a really, really, really long time. I screwed up um...three times, but hopefully God is merciful and I can still make this work. I mean...He can still make this work.

Today is my nephew's birthday, Little Chris. He's three now. I find that pretty hard to grasp...I mean, I remember before he was born...I remember right after he was born and he was just three days old and we went to see him and he wasn't even dark-skinned yet. (Now he's a deep chocolate).

Random subject change, I know. I miss writing. A lot. I miss reading, but I really, really, really miss writing. As a matter of fact, I'm going to go and write right now.

No, I can't. I have to do Bioportal, or start on MasteringPhysics, or something of the like. I hate school. It's always the worst the third month in....everything has just become so tedious, and it doesn't let up, neither.

*wants to cry*

So I'm going to go read a little bit of my story and perhaps write just a tad, and then do my schoolwork.

I'll talk to you again soon,

~your droopy-eyed scholar,

Cahryn K.

Day Nineteen: Only?

I'm so tired. So, so, so tired.
But what else is new? I'm tired beyond being tired. It's cold. Very.

Wanna know how cold?

It's going down to 32degrees tonight and we have to have the fans going inside the house and the windows open because idiots want to smoke. Indoors.

Gosh, I hate cigarettes and smoke and very nearly the people who smoke them. Almost.

I also hate physics, bioinformatics, uncooperative hair, and technology in general. None of it does me any good at the moment.

I must sleep, for I am on the verge of emotional oblivion.

Your emotional obliviante,
~Cahryn K.

Day Fifteen: Stupid, unreliable technology

Yes, you heard me, and that was an SM reference.

Stupid idiotic MasteringPhysics is giving me the same troubles, after a whole weekend. It's got some glitch in the system that it won't accept any answers. Pisses me off something fierce.

ANY-WAYYY.

I don't have anything else to talk about, really. I finally finished that lab report, and submitted it to SafeAssign this morning, printed out two copies, I've finished my prelab...(hmm, need to staple that)... finished the prelab for Physics, too, and well, now I'm sort of at a loss for what to do. There isn't enough time to sleep before my bio class...I only have 25 minutes before it starts. Then after that it's straight through till 5:50pm. And it's 11:21am now. Yeesh-a-beesh. Long day, eh? I know. But it's not so bad.

My friend Denia's birthday is this saturday, and on Sunday she wants to go to six flags. But, um...I doubt I'll have the money to go...especially seeing as how all sorts of bills always pile up around the end of the month.

There are a number of scholarships I would like to apply for, that fastweb.com found for me. I need the time to do the writing, though. Okay. So over Thanksgiving break, I need to complete at least two, as well as keep up on my studying.

I wonder if we're going to do a lot of cooking for thanksgiving? I know I want to try to make that cornflakes baked chicken....and we must have lasagna, because, well, we have that every year, and that's the only time I get to eat it, usually.

I'll also have to look up some really good vegetarian dishes to see if I can make them for daddy. Gosh. All this talk about food is making me hungry...quite literally. But I'll get over it. Mind over matter, and I can do all things through Christ who strengthens me. Right?

RIGHT!

I also want to keep working on my stories...by the time I finally go back on any of the websites, my readers more than deserve like, three chapters or something. I'm just realizing that school takes all or nothing, and in a way it sucks, because you've gotta let some things give. *sigh*

Maybe it really is all about time management. It's time to knuckle down.

I'll pack up and get ready for class now, so I'll talk to you tomorrow.

Or maybe...later on today. We'll see.

Your determined knuckle,

~Cahryn K.

Day Fourteen: My Life Has Been Kind of Sucky Lately

Hi.

Don't wanna talk about it.

I sort of screwed everything up. Not with the fast...no, that's going fine. I'm also getting skinnier, my added bonus. But everything besides that sort of really sucks.

Lets talk about fun stuff.

Saturday night I went on a trip to a corn maze with the Photography club and learned how to use my camera whoooo!!! Er...my dad's camera. Still whooooo! =P

I also took light painting pictures for the first time. I used film, so when I get them developed, I'll scan them and then put them up here. It was a cool trip...we left at six oclock. Okay, I lie. The bus didn't even show up until six thirty or quarter to seven. Then we drove until we were lost, (about 45 minutes) and then turned around and drove again until we found the place. It was Horbes Farm in Riverhead, L.I. So they had made it all spooky for halloween, actually, which wasn't part of the bargain. I wasn't informed of this prior to actually reaching the farm. But, I was there, it was 8pm, dark and spooky clouds, scary music playing from some sort of soundsystem, and...goblins to pop out of the cornstalks unexpected at every other turn.

Lol. It was fun. It was set up like a Lord Of The Rings story, and so we had to find a magic ring and bring it past the giant spider named Sheila, lol, and we met lots of interesting characters along the way. All of them were dressed all medieval-times looking. It was pretty cool!

Had lots of fun, finished a roll of 36pics film, met a cool freshman named Alex who takes uh-may-zing pictures, (and also travels the world every summer with an orchestra), drank hot spiced cider (which cost $3 for a little styrfoam cup), and sat out at a picnic bench and had a nice convo with Alex about pictures and apertures and bulb settings, and light photos and traveling the world and what Morocco is like compared to someplace else (and in his opinion, better), and then got back on the bus for the ride back to Stony Brook.

I got picked up from the SAC by my folks, who borrowed a car, since it was 11:00pm by the time we got back, and with this weekend's track work on the LIRR, I wouldn't have reached home until quarter to two. I'm immensely grateful for that.

Now, on friday, Mastering Physics wouldn't work, so thank God I've gotten an extension till Monday night at 10. Also, the lab report rewrite is due Monday (tomorrow) at the beginning of lab, and I've got to upload it to safeassign tonight.

In other words, lots of stuff to do. I guess I won't be watching Avatar after all, tonight.

See you later,

your spiced donut,

~Cahryn K.