I'm so torn...
I want to do this right. I really do.
And if all else fails, we promised we'd stay friends, right?
Why do so many doubts have to keep coming in? Nothing worth it is ever easy, right?
Maybe I just let myself get discouraged too easily.
If I really want it, I have to keep trying.
Someone once told me life consist of a whole lotta "letting goes". letting go of the confusion, anger, the desires, wants and needs. The human body has it way of eliminating waste,after extracting the nutrients it needs to function. When you are young figuring out what the necessary nutrients are can be quiet confusing. What happens if we make a mistake and choose the waste, which happens all to often. Waste eventually reveals itself, it stinks!
ReplyDeleteSleep oh sweet sleep, perhaps to dream, dreams are brain's way of flushing pain, anxiety and confusion down the toilet. A good nights sleep,a new beginning, a different perspective on the same ole problems. Poop. sweat and sleep filled dreams,with plenty of water and the "letting go" will begin.
Part of the problem you are a young woman with womanly desires, complicated by wanting to please your parents, while you are mildly still under the influence of teenage angst. I say keep it "simple" begin by giving your blog an appropriate title, call it "CONFUSION" that and nothing more.
ReplyDeleteHahahaha, Nobby, you are awesome.
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